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….NEHW December 2, 2009

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When you care so much for someone

And you don’t get his attention back,

When you think with love about this someone

And wish him true happiness,

When this person means the world to you,

And he doesn’t even know it,

When you feel you’re burning out in your own passion

And you just should not express it,

Because this might scare him off,

When this person treats you good,

But is keeping distance,

When you are feeling guilty after trying to approach him,

When you feel so lucky when he simply smiles at you,

When you sketch his name with stylish script,

In your notebook…beneath all the piles of work stuff,

When you dream about him late at night,

And wish he was there, by your side,

When you stay away, simply coz you wanted to protect him…

Do you think he cares back?

Do you think he is aware…?

02.12.2009

 

Есен/Зима December 2, 2009

Filed under: Разни — gstoyanova @ 9:15 pm

Есенният листопад затрупва заспалите улици,

Връхлита ни със силата на ураган..

Листата безмълвно се реят из въздуха,

И разбивайки се върху стъклата на колите,

Угасват в завършващ танц.

Меките цветове на есента, декорират самотните пейки в парка,

Милват лицата на вечно забързаните минувачи,

И сякаш искат да ни подскажат за задаващата се стихия.

Идва зима, а след нея пустота, смиреност, киша.

Сякаш зимата сковава затоплените ни души…

Утре, градът ще заблести в Коледна премяна,

Ще носи със себе си споменът за празнични семейни дни,

Край запалена камина – камбанен звън,

Искрица пламък, нежност, красота…

И едничката надежда за предстоящо, разцъфващо начало…

Нов живот…мечта….магия….

Шампанско ще се лее, всички ще ликуват,

Българският химн – тържествено ще прозвучи,

Хорá ще се извият, чашите- кристално ще ехтят…

Полунощ часовникът ще отбележи…

В очакване на неизвестното начало…

И тогава, далеч от пчелния рояк,

Отварям аз очи…

А навън е тихо…

Лятото тепърва предстои….

01.12.2009 г

 

Heavy reality November 23, 2009

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November midnight…

The wind gently sways the curtains in my bedroom…

Fire-brigade sirens echo in the distance,

The neighbor’s old TV – left screaming again,

Abandoned cat is whining in the dark…

 

Smooth jazz music is playing in the background,

Helping me to fall asleep…

But it’s hard to do so,

When there is only me …

 

The smell of your skin on the empty patterned sheets,

Along with the night’s whisper

Make my eyelids weigh down

As if the whole world will fall asleep when I do…

And the only way out of this trap is bursting into tears…

 

I hear your voice again, calling me, but in my dream,

You lie next to me, snuggled in my pillow…

“Mommy, please don’t let me go”

I hear you groan…

 

I do my best to keep my eyes shut,

And keep you with me for eternity…

Don’t want to wake up,

Because loosing sight of you will bring me back to reality,

Where there is only me….without my baby….

 

22.11.2009

 

Shocking reality October 17, 2009

Filed under: Разни — gstoyanova @ 7:27 pm

Turning on the TV..

The evening headlines blink in red..

“16 year old boy killed after a fight with another boy”

Why people are so cruel?

The reason they say is a cigarette

A fight over a cigarette…

Why? What is wrong with us?

Where is mankind heading to?

Peaceful life? Integrity and improvement? No way..

We are far away from that…

Especially when it comes to a person’s life- a child’s life!

Instead of looking ahead towards the future,

We are going backwards, with huge insensible steps….

Today, tomorrow – it’s getting worse..

Breaking news are getting more terrifying

Young women raped, others killed…

All these children whose life ended so suddenly..who could not grow up, have their own family and get old…

Life is being unfair with us sometimes….

Teaching us all the way throughout our lifetime….

Giving us hints, sending us people to guide us and protect us…to teach us how to love….how to treat others…how to fight and be strong…

Life is also sending us people to hate us, to insult us and to break our hearts …so we can become stronger…

But why is life sending us people to kill us?

The answer to this question lies in our sanity…

 

Tear drop September 5, 2009

Filed under: Разни — gstoyanova @ 4:23 pm

Tear drop – falling from the sky,

Silently kissing the ground,

Bringing the emotion of a new day,

Stealing away the echo of the last…

 

Reflection of my silhouette in the rain drop,

That’s rolling down the windshield.

Drawing contours of a new morn,

Shivering in rhythm, under the wind’s blow.

 

Yet another day, I have to share you with the endless sky,

And keep waking up without you by my side.

Today, it’s raining again in my eyes,

Although, I still feel your love inside.

Sharp noises – coming from up above,

Of a supersonic, that is tearing up the air mantle,

Reverberating in the distance roughly,

Just like your absence is killing me abruptly.

 

Snow flake –falling from the sky,

Silently melting on the ground,

Bringing the emotion of a new day,

Stealing away the track of the past…

 

 13.09.2009

 

Stone-framed Love June 16, 2009

Filed under: Разни — gstoyanova @ 8:40 pm

 

Almost one year ago, I opened the glass framed door,

And showed you how much I care,

 

Now, I am sitting here, looking at you,

Through the same glass framed door,

Only this time, it’s a lot thicker.

This time you’re a lot colder.

 

I don’t want to open that door

Coz you will repulse me,

You will say “No”

 

You told me I could call you,

Whenever I need you,

Whenever I feel blue,

How I wish I could hold you,

For just one more time.

 

I know you are there, I can see you

I stretch out my hand, but I cannot reach you

 

Is this a dream, I keep asking myself

Coz if it ain’t no dream, I need to know

Or has this glass framed door simply turned into a stone framed love?!

 

17.06.2009

 

One June 16, 2009

Filed under: Разни — gstoyanova @ 8:03 pm

One girl, one day,

One lifetime- too short,

One dazzling smile,

One great love,

One high school prom,

One dream,

One fearless soul,

One chance for a change

A desired goal,

One lifetime opportunity,

One brave heart,

One university graduation,

One ambition to carry on,

One crucial day,

One lifetime – too short,

One fate – too cruel,

One fearless soul,

One brave heart,

One girl,

One day…..

 

 P.S. Dedicated to Bojidara!

 

March 5, 2009

Filed under: Разни — gstoyanova @ 9:23 pm

Lying mutely by your side…..

Staring out thru your tiny little window…

Sudden outburst of sadness ran thru my veins…

Sadness for no specific reason, or maybe thousands of such ….

“Nostalgia” is the word that got stuck in my mind…but why?

Nostalgia, for what? For yesterday…..as if yesterday was better than today…

Looking again towards the window, I see sunlight…a little bright spot at the end, as if it shapes up the end of a long dark tunnel….

The little bright spot that makes life meaningful…that brings sense to everything…

How I wish you could show me the places of every single piece thus making the puzzle complete…

How I wish you could hold me close and meet the sunrise with me by your side….today….tomorrow…next year…..together….without fear…

 

Thank You January 6, 2009

Filed under: Разни — gstoyanova @ 9:33 pm

 

Thank you…

 

For coming into my life when all seemed so dark and meaningless,

 

For holding my hand and helping me breathe again,

 

For showing that love still exits, even in different dimension,

 

For giving me courage, by whispering sweet words,

 

For always managing to brighten up my days when everything looked grey,

 

For smiling at me even when you felt like crying,

 

For keeping me in your heart, even though we are drifting apart,

 

For holding me in your mind, even though time is standing between us,

 

For being yourself, for being true,

 

Thank you and God bless you!

 

Thoughts running thru my head.. December 16, 2008

Filed under: Разни — gstoyanova @ 6:45 pm

It seems easier and convenient not to take risks to change your life…

 

Habit is an obstacle when making decisions…

 

It all looks so perfect when you wear your pink sunglasses, which reflect the world in a glamorous, shiny way…

 

Words cannot buy you love, or keep the fire burning if u don’t put firewood in it….but they can ruin one’s life…one’s dreams…

 

If promises cannot be kept, they would rather not me be made at all…

 

What hurts the most is when truth is saved up in order to prevent someone from suffering…in fact this equals to a lie…

 

Marriage is for those who cannot live without each other, not for those who make a convenience of one another…

 

Being honest with someone doesn’t make you a bad person…

 

Being happy with someone is not an event that happens, it is state of mind…